Opinionated.

Lately I've been thinking about people, myself, and life in general...but that's not new. However, recently I have been pondering on the idea of opinions. People are very opinionated, no matter what. In a way, people are biased, some more strongly than others.

Looking at myself, I believe I am somewhat opinionated. I don't know how biased I am though. Maybe because I am not very self-assured. I consider myself flexible, constantly changing, and altruistic (and become more so every day!). If I look at where I am today and where I was a few months ago and where I was a year ago I can see many changes in myself. My core values are always the same, those are some things I am highly opinionated on.

But for other things, when I observe people, I suppose...I am weak compared to them...I'm using the term "weak" for a lack of a better adjective. When I listen to friends, family, and classmates talk, many of them are very self-assured, very "I'm right. This it what is right!". When talking with said friends and family and classmates, I find myself easily swayed, or highly likely to question what I do believe. Occasionally I will get into an debate with a person if they think differently or are wrong (two VERY different things!), but eventually I do back down because the person's will is usually stronger than mine and I'm tired of fighting.

Sometimes I wish I could be like that. I wish I could be as forward with my thoughts and what makes me, me. I don't know. Maybe it's because I lack a certain confidence a lot of other people have, and maybe I'm still child-like in the way I think...maybe I'm just shy. I don't know.

I am slightly envious of those who can defend themselves and their opinions with such vigor. It's refreshing and amusing...amusing in a good way. It's nice to see that people have their own minds and will readily defend what they think. I hope that I will be able to become more strong-willed and capable to be just as open as they are too. :]