Teaching

Teaching is a hard job. I never really thought about that until tonight. When you are a teacher, it usually means you are well-versed in a subject, you know it well enough to have confidence to teach others. You are in charge of what others know. Also, you are in charge of the students. As a student they must obey the teacher in order to learn. But also, it is the teacher who creates the classroom enviornment. If the teacher is laid-back and relaxed students will either adopt that attitude or they see it as the teacher being a pushover and begin to take advantage. If a teacher is uptight, students will get that vibe. Almost a "monkey see, monkey do" kinda thing.

Although my classroom is different from most, I am a teacher of 6 rather than 26, and the setting is different, we sit on a bed and on cushions rather than in desks, I am still a teacher nonetheless. Thinking about how I am as a teacher is an interesting concept. I can do much better. I am an extreme pushover when it comes to my kids. I think it is because I care about what parents think and I don't want to be harsh because I am afraid that I cannot draw the line between in control and being psychotically strict.

Well, that's something I can most definately work on. Tonight didn't go so well, but I think that mostly stems from me. I am usually very ill-prepared. I teach from this book with chapters about prayer and worship and all that good stuff. I don't usually read it and I just go in and try to teach. In my last blog I mentioned that I want the kids to go away with learning about love, if anything at all. The way I'm teaching, I'm doing a terrible job.

So, I think I need to spend the week meditating on each lesson. Sure I'm not coming up with sermons, I have them right in front of me, but I'm still teaching and directing kids in the name of Christ. If I do a half-effort job then they will retain less, I believe.So, I'll try that for this week. Meditate on next week's lesson for the week and give it completely to God. Again, I have what I'm teaching in front of me so I really don't have to put much effort into it at all, but who knows, perhaps God will lay it on my heart that I should teach something else. :)

We shall see, we shall see....

Because I Can?

A new year and a new look for my blog? Haha, I don't know. I get bored so easily and I'm always changing stuff. I'm a weirdo. And yes, that is another picture I took. Nehehehe......I'm not a phtographer, and I realize that everytime I see the pictures I take but it's still so much fun. Who knows, perhaps one day I will become good at it.

Well, today was fairly boring. I woke up at nine in the morning so I was happy, but because I didn't get out of bed right away I went back to sleep and woke up at 10-11ish....fail! O_o I took a shower, had breakfast/lunch, and now I'm doing laundry which is good! Now I can see another square foot or so of carpet in my room. Even then, I like doing laundry. I don't know why, but it's one of my favorite chores to do. I suppose because there is a dance move called "The washing machine" and also I love it when my clothes are done drying and I take them out right away and the clothes are nice and warm and soft. That might be the reason. That or I enjoy being clean.....although my room and bathroom aren't testimonies to that. -_- Uggggh, I have so much to do before school starts. I still need to buy books, I have errands to run and I need to clean more. >.<

Along with that I've been listening to Owl City all day. I love Owl City, haha, well, I love his lyrics. They're so poetic and just very pretty, haha.

Along with my productive, or rather, unproductive day, I did a lot of thinking. I was thinking about Vista and life. I want to move away from SoCal, I think, or just rather the cities I've grown up in. Sure everything I love is here, family, friends, my church, and all that good stuff, but I don't know if I want to live here forever. Vista will always be home no matter what. I was raised here, but even a young bird must leave her nest at some point. Perhaps when I go off to a university I'll be able to figure out what I'm going to do. I do however know that where ever I go, if my heart is there, home will be there too. Isn't that what matters most?

So tonight is community groups. I'm teaching the kids about prayer.......I hope it goes well. I love teaching those kids. I hope that if they learn anything from me (and Jakob), I hope they learn love. The love of Christ, the love for others, and just how to have a good time, haha.

Well, I think I should end this blog now. Jaymie is talking to me, and the voices in my head are not strong enough yet to block her out.

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I loves herrr! :DDD

Best friend.

And Sister? O_o