I want to be...

...who I used to be.

But wait, let me explain. I want to the positive things I once was. They used to call me graceful. They used to call me sweet. They used to call me elegant. They used to call me calm. I want to be all that again. I suppose I like who I am today to a certain extent: klutzy, spastic, and mm....unique, I suppose. But I don't like it at the same time. I'm not who I used to be.

What brought this up? Life. People in my life. People that make me think. There are certain people that I know that are just...grawr, rude. It's annoying. And well, I don't do anything about it. I get annoyed, and in my mind I just want to yell and snap and be rude to them back, but I'm not. And it got me thinking about who I used to be. I used to be this friendly (but super shy person..well, I'm still super shy-ish..) who was sweet to everyone. I was called "one of the nicest people ever". Today, I don't think I can be called that anymore. I sure as heck can't be called elegant or graceful anymore.

I think I want to go back to that. Hmm, how to do it though. Is it possible to grow up again?